I wish I could say the same for myself. It's very strange. Things are going so well yet I feel paralyzed and it's really a horrible feeling. Although we have had low activity over the past few days I've been sleeping 10 hours per night and don't have energy to do much during the day.
I mentioned Jemma's breathing last week, and it is still bothering me a lot. When I sit close to her while reading I hear small sounds that send my mind back to last summer. Once my mind goes back a year, I have trouble returning to today. Worry and unhelpful thoughts keep turning over and over in my mind and I can't stop them from coming. I thought reading a bit on the internet would make me feel better, but it really makes me feel a lot worse. Ignorance is bliss. Some nights the thoughts keep me up and some days they keep me from being productive.
My logical brain knows this type of thought is not helpful to me or anyone else around me. So when I step back and think about it I know I need to change my behavior.
I watched this 10 minute video review of the book "How to Stop Worrying and Start Living" by Dale Carnegie and it did seem to help. Brian Johnson discusses several key points from the book that make a lot of sense and I'm really trying to follow them. - Don't stress about the past or the future, do what needs to be done today, accept what is in your life, think about what could be done, make a plan, take action, and take breaks.
Friday and Saturday were horrible days for me, but yesterday and today weren't too bad. I think it's a matter of time. I've spent a year in emergency mode and dealing with the unfamiliar. Now that things have calmed down I need to readjust again.
Last week the doctor told me that this transition time is typically a very difficult time for parents and I completely agree.
This post is linked to:
A Mama's Story
The Better Mom
Chicken Chicks
Miscellany Monday
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